11 JULY 2017

Dear Barb,

Have you found your passion? Have you found "it"? I'm not really sure. Because you have too many "it"s.

The first time I met you, you used to play basketball every Wednesday evening, run on most other evenings and swim on most mornings. And you did each of those things with the same amount of dedication and discipline as that of when you trained for TT. So I can't really tell if table tennis is "it", Barb. Everything is "it" for you when you take it upon yourself to pursue something. For example, yesterday, you started training those little kids in Netball (I still don't get what kind of sport that is) and I know for a fact that if you were to continue living in Gibraltar for some more time, you wouldn't stop those sessions for the world. You'd make the time for them. And these Netball sessions would have also become "it". So there you go!

But coming back to today, isn't it crazy that I just realised a few hours ago that today is a Tuesday? And I realised that only when I got a reminder that I had to go to Zumba class this evening. We didn't have a weekend last week and I don't even remember what we spent our time doing. Except, we spent almost all waking hours together doing shit. What shit? I don't even know where to start.

Shane's mom called me yesterday and once again, tried to push her agenda of convincing us to return to India to take over their business. I'm really not the person she should be talking to but I guess I at least listen whereas her absent-minded son just zones out every time she brings it up. Anyway, she started saying what she's been saying to me from the time I met her - "with a day job, you work for other people and need their permission to go on holidays. With your own business, on the other hand, you decide when you want to go on a holiday and everyone adjusts to that". And for the first time, I got to stop her right there and explain what goes on in my home - "with a day job, Shane returns from work at a fixed time every day and that's that. He plays games, goes out with friends, drinks on a weekday and has his weekends all to himself. With my own personal ventures, on the other hand, I have not been able to set aside my laptop for most of my waking hours in the past few weeks, I've had to cancel plans with friends because my time is not my own, and I haven't slept much over the last weekend".

She responded with, "Oh yeah, that's the downside of it. You have no mornings, no nights, you work round the clock and you work your butt off". Finally, we're on the same page about this and for the first time, I heard a big, wide smile in her voice as she told me she was happy that I could perfectly understand her world. I'm not so sure that's a good thing, Barb! I have seen my parents-in-law work and I have often thought that they were addicted to what they were doing because even on the weekends when the rest of the world relaxed, they would end up spending close to 12 hours in their office. I'm really not sure if that's a good thing.

Anyway, I'm going to relax as best as I can until this Sunday so don't be too surprised if I go off the grid at some point okay?

Love,
Ankita